Back Again

Here I am at this place-it seems I remember it pretty clearly. I guess it was only six months ago that I felt this way, and it took merely one month to feel it again.

I feel filled with mucous. I feel energetically heavy and mildly depressed. It feels like my food is fermenting inside my body-I don't know how else to describe it. For one month I have been kind of eating whatever and drinking whatever. I have consistent pain that has been increasingly reaching more and more parts of my body. This is not how I want to feel.

The Morning After the Day After

Like I said, two days ago I ate whatever at a company potluck. I was still feeling mentally unfocused and unwell yesterday. It was also a challenge not to eat more of the same. Sugar is a drug. There is no doubt in my body. I know I have heard this from many sources, and I am one to have to experience things myself in order to believe them. Then it usually takes several experiences before I live by my beliefs. My body is still in pain too. I feel it the most in my joints. I didn't realize on my cleanse when I stopped being in pain until I ate this or that that brought it back. And the more consistently I eat this or that, the longer the pain resides.

I am eating whole foods now. I like that a lot. There is more permission in it and sanity as well.

Still candida cleansing?

I haven't posted in a while. The reason for that is that I haven't been sure if I am still candida cleansing. Here is what is going on:

I began taking the Humaworm candida supplement. Halfway through I began actively passing candida from my body. Very exciting.

I then became obsessed with doing a parasite cleanse and a friend of mine offered me one. I found myself too excited to do the parasite cleanse so I stopped the herbal candida supplement and began the herbal parasite cleanse.

Simultaneously, I began reintroducing some "sugars" back into my body on a semi-regular and then regular basis. These included rice, beans, and then some gluten and actual sugar. The gluten and actual sugar have been occasional. Until today.

What is going on now is that I am still taking a parasite supplement. I will finish the candida one when the parasite one is done.  Today at work, though, there was a potluck. Portions-wise I was pretty reasonable but I did consume mostly glutinous foods and some sugar. I feel so disconnected from my body and spacey like I took some cold medicine or something. It does not feel good.

I have been attempting to balance the way I was eating before with what my body seems to be wanting now. In other words, my body does not feel good eating sugar and gluten. That is clear. I have pain in my spine and feet and all throughout. I believe it is from inflammation. I do not, however, want to be so strict with myself right now. A little bit of carbohydrate seems to be working, and with the season change I want some more warming foods.

Decision: my decision is to eat whole, unprocessed foods. I think this combines the best of both worlds for how I am feeling now. I will keep you updated.

Humaworm supplement part 2

I didn't write anything about my Humaworm supplement during the second week because it was pretty boring. Same kind of deal as the first week. The last two days have been more eventful, though. At the end of week two and beginning of week three I've had some break outs in my skin in odd places-my shoulder, chest and one large on one my abdomen. And the last two days I've been passing candida! That's right! It has been coming out in the bowl. What does it look like? Well, it is yellow and floaty and furry looking, I guess. I recognize it from a series of colonics I did where they pointed it out to me. This has been very exciting. I have had to go to the bathroom at some inopportune times, but it has been worth it to get these little buggers out. I'll let you know if there's more movement.

Food obsession

We are a culture obsessed with food. I'm sure this is no surprise. I do not own a television and one night I stayed in a hotel room and watched tv. When watching TV I realized that literally every commercial I saw flip flopped between weight loss and (usually fast) food. No wonder we are so fucked up! How can we get it straight when we are inundated with thoughts of greasy French fries followed by a compulsion to burn off those calories or starve ourselves in retribution for our guilt?

I see this so much when I am around people at work. They think it is commendable to feel guilty about eating a doughnut. I may not have the answers to the universe, but I can tell you we are not here to spend our lives feeling guilty about fried sugar and dough. But how can we enjoy it when we know how bad it is for us and how physically bad it can make us feel and how the TV (and other people) tell us all the time that we should be ashamed of what we put in our bodies? Well, I don't have THE answer to that either. I do have some answers.

One-turn off the television.
Two-eat foods, more often than not, that you buy yourself at the store. These should preferably be things that look like the plant or animal they came from.
Three-read the ingredients. If there is a word you don't understand or some vague ingredient like "natural favors" find another version of that same food that clearly lists the ingredients.

If you do this, without counting calories or carbs or proteins or pounds, for several months, you will feel better. You will look better. Your body will begin to tell you when something doesn't feel right and you will naturally be less likely to want to eat it without beating yourself up on either side of your decision. Just think-"I could spend a few months eating mostly real foods. A mere matter of months out of my life and I could change my entire relationship with food." Not so bad, eh?

What'd ya say?

Humaworm supplement week one

After all this time-four months, actually- I decided to take a supplement called Humaworm for the candida. I came across some other blogs about this supplement and it seems extremely potent. I would say the main reason for taking it now is that I would like to be through with the cleansing and returning to eating normally. I have already begun incorporating things back into my diet gently, but I don't want to just undo everything I did to fight the candida by bringing it back through a little bit of carbohydrate. I would rather feel that it is really out of my system and I can eat anything in moderation without severe consequence. So, here we go...

I received the pills today and took my first dose an hour ago. I feel mildly headachy, which I wasn't before taking the pills. I also feel like my internal temperature is elevated.

Day 2: first day taking full dosage. Had two BMs- one in morning, one in afternoon. Both small. I tried checking out the morning one, and it had some white powdery looking stuff on it, but it was so far into the toilet I couldn't properly examine. Nothing notable about how afternoon one looked.

Day 3: feeling a little crampy this morning. This isn't entirely irregular for me but not the norm either. Hopefully leading to fun BM. Morning BM- small and normal looking but smellier than I'm used to. Ears itching today, along with a lot of gasy activity in my colon.

Day 4: woke up with a BM ready to go . Larger than the last few days. Not sure if because of supplement or because of large number of flax seed snacks I've ingested lately. Either way, happy to be eliminating. Nothing notable about appearance,cmeaning don't see candida being passed. Stinky gas. Sad for my neighbors in yoga class.

Day 5: woke up with a lot of phlegm in my throat. Could be from doing yoga yesterday, getting all the shit in my lungs moving. I have decided the bowel movements yesterday were from flax seed and
 the gas (that I am still having) is from the Humaworm. Didn't have an evening meal yesterday and I still woke up with gas. Mild die-off I think then. Left eye itching all day. Late afternoon BM with nothing notable except flax seeds in it. I guess it is

Day 7: Nothing super noteable again. Eyes suddenly a little itchy. No BM so far today, but I didn't have many flax seeds yesterday or the day before. I did have good BM yesterday full of seeds. Flax is my friend. I have still a little belly rumbling which is not from what I've been eating, so the supplement is working in that way. It's just not evident on the way out yet.

Quick Elimination Guide-Vitamin C

The colon is the end of the elimination process in your body for many systems. If the colon is backed up, it can create some toxicity in the body that is not happy making.

A TEACHER of mine (who is not a doctor) told me about this from her doctor. I am not a doctor either. If you would like to do this, you may want to check with your healthcare professional but it works for me, and is probably why I am having continued success on my cleanse.

Vitamin C to aid constipation: too much vitamin C for someone with normal elimination can create diarrhea. For someone who is constipated, it can soften the stool enough to create regular bowel movements.

How to implement: get a quality vitamin C with few fillers or binders. I prefer capsules, and I've just begun taking the powder mixed with water which I also like. Start with a low dose: maybe 500 mg once per day. Increase your dosage slowly each day until one day you have diarrhea. The next day, back off one dose and that is your daily intake.

I split mine up, and I am taking 3000 mg twice per day. This may seem like a lot, and it is certainly not the dose for everyone, but if you're constipated, the above method could get things moving. I am having regular, large bowel movements at least once per day.

Again, if you have concerns, check with your healthcare professional.

Cheers!